Baby Dedication

My husband and I have never been on time for anything, so why start with our daughter’s baby dedication?  It is now more of a toddler dedication, but it is what it is and the whole purpose behind dedicating her to God still remains the same.  Our church asked us to be ready to explain why we want to dedicate her and to send a few pictures in before her dedication next month.  I couldn’t decide on a few so I sent almost ten, figuring someone, who is a little more objective than I can be, can filter through and find the few they think would be best.  The reason why is taking some more time to think through.

Those of you who have been following my blog know that my husband and I went through six years of infertility so our little baby girl, Grace, is nothing short of a miracle.  The doctors kept telling me that there was nothing wrong with my husband or I, which didn’t help really, and we did everything we could think of to bring her along.  I look back and laugh now about how I used to think I could manipulate God by saying that I would never talk to him again or try to get him to feel sorry for me by crying for hours, but that’s just not how it works.  Our daughter had a certain time and place and I just needed to trust in God and wait.  I hate waiting.  Even if my husband and I have been standing in a certain part of the store for too long, I go crazy and tell him I’m moving to the next aisle.  I was glad the wait was finally over and I don’t think I really breathed until she had made it through pregnancy and to her first birthday.

There’s many reasons we want to dedicate her to God, but I don’t think anyone will truly understand how excited we are to dedicate her to God unless they know what it was like to be in our shoes.  We didn’t just wait the nine months most people get to experience, we waited ten years after we got married to make sure we had a good home to bring a child into (my husband had an addiction for many years), and then we waited another six through infertility wondering if we would ever have a child.

Every moment I spend with her is like living in a dream and I’m so very thankful every day that I get to hear her laugh and feel her big hug when she’s drowsy in the morning after first waking up.  We are so thankful to God for bringing her into our home and for preparing us during the time we felt like we were walking around the same mountain for years.  I grew more during the time I went through infertility, than any other time of my life, even after the first year of sleepless nights from having a newborn.  That was a piece of cake compared to the monthly roller coaster and wondering if…

I want our daughter, Grace, to know that she is special and specially made by God.  I want her to know how beautiful she is inside and out because she was created by God and her worth is not based on anything we find on Earth or in anyone here on Earth.  We want to dedicate her to announce publicly that she is a gift from God and we will be a godly example so she will know how to be.  To symbolize that we are entrusting her life to God’s will.

“I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.  So now I give him to the LORD.  For his (her) whole life he (she) will be given over to the LORD.” 1 Samuel 1:27-28

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Hope

Do you ever wish that you could somehow watch your life as it unfolds like watching a movie?  How marvelous would it be to reach into God’s video archives and just watch my life from the time I was born till now?  I could point to my husband and say “See, I didn’t throw away those papers you were looking for!”  Even more importantly, I believe I would be able to see who I am a little more clearly.  It would be amazing to be more of an objective viewer over my life so I could have a different perspective.  I could detach from my emotions long enough to see what God was doing in my life, behind the scenes, to know if the dreams I had were on their way to becoming true.

I suppose I’m glad that I’m not the director of my life.  If I had known if and when my struggles would be over, I may have thrown in the towel too soon thinking that what I wanted was too far away.  My husband and I were married for twelve years before he was completely free from the bondage of pornography and it took us six years and several miscarriages before we had our daughter.  I’m thankful that God is willing and able to carry me through all of the difficult scenes of my life.  I’m very sure that there has been multiple times that God has probably wanted to reach into the world’s stage and tell me to hang on to hope and he did.  Through my family, friends, messages from preachers, his word, and comfort during very difficult prayers.  He was doing a lot of behind the scenes moves sending me hope while orchestrating a way for my husband to finally reach out for help against his addiction.

His strength is revealed in our weakness. I don’t always know what God’s plans are, but  he can see the big picture.  His plans are for our good, not to harm us.  “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)  God can make this promise because he is the divine director over our lives, if we would trust in him.  Let me give  you some hope today for whatever you may be going through.  Remember the times that he has been faithful to you and helped you through difficult situations in the past and believe that he is still working on your behalf.  I know that I can lean and trust in him for whatever situations I face in the future because he has delivered my husband from pornography and has blessed us with a beautiful little girl.