My husband and I have never been on time for anything, so why start with our daughter’s baby dedication? It is now more of a toddler dedication, but it is what it is and the whole purpose behind dedicating her to God still remains the same. Our church asked us to be ready to explain why we want to dedicate her and to send a few pictures in before her dedication next month. I couldn’t decide on a few so I sent almost ten, figuring someone, who is a little more objective than I can be, can filter through and find the few they think would be best. The reason why is taking some more time to think through.
Those of you who have been following my blog know that my husband and I went through six years of infertility so our little baby girl, Grace, is nothing short of a miracle. The doctors kept telling me that there was nothing wrong with my husband or I, which didn’t help really, and we did everything we could think of to bring her along. I look back and laugh now about how I used to think I could manipulate God by saying that I would never talk to him again or try to get him to feel sorry for me by crying for hours, but that’s just not how it works. Our daughter had a certain time and place and I just needed to trust in God and wait. I hate waiting. Even if my husband and I have been standing in a certain part of the store for too long, I go crazy and tell him I’m moving to the next aisle. I was glad the wait was finally over and I don’t think I really breathed until she had made it through pregnancy and to her first birthday.
There’s many reasons we want to dedicate her to God, but I don’t think anyone will truly understand how excited we are to dedicate her to God unless they know what it was like to be in our shoes. We didn’t just wait the nine months most people get to experience, we waited ten years after we got married to make sure we had a good home to bring a child into (my husband had an addiction for many years), and then we waited another six through infertility wondering if we would ever have a child.
Every moment I spend with her is like living in a dream and I’m so very thankful every day that I get to hear her laugh and feel her big hug when she’s drowsy in the morning after first waking up. We are so thankful to God for bringing her into our home and for preparing us during the time we felt like we were walking around the same mountain for years. I grew more during the time I went through infertility, than any other time of my life, even after the first year of sleepless nights from having a newborn. That was a piece of cake compared to the monthly roller coaster and wondering if…
I want our daughter, Grace, to know that she is special and specially made by God. I want her to know how beautiful she is inside and out because she was created by God and her worth is not based on anything we find on Earth or in anyone here on Earth. We want to dedicate her to announce publicly that she is a gift from God and we will be a godly example so she will know how to be. To symbolize that we are entrusting her life to God’s will.
“I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD. For his (her) whole life he (she) will be given over to the LORD.” 1 Samuel 1:27-28